To be honest I can't remember the last time I was actually excited to write on this space, or excited for anything in general. I've been finding myself to be so lost in life, in the daily routine of waking up, going to school/work then coming home and only to go to bed knowing that the next day is going to be exactly the same. I'll admit that this year has been one of the most eventful year so far, I've had the opportunity to meet and experience people and things that I'd never even dream of. The parties and events that are so beautiful has only seem to make more and more hollow inside, I've become so dull and emotionless that sometimes I don't even know who I am anymore. November use to be my favorite month of the year not only because it's my birthday month but also because it's the school holidays which means no more waking up for 9am class but waking up to a different city and exploring places I've never been but now that it's here it just feels like another boring month waiting to pass. I know I just sound like an ungrateful prick now and I'd love to snap out of whatever this is but I'm just so confused urgh..

bel xx